It's Really Time This Time...

This is really hard for me to admit. I'm really not sure why... but it is.

I know I'm not alone feeling this way, but I'm a bit depressed. It's been almost 12 weeks since Hurricane Harvey changed our lives and town... and I just guess I'm feeling and acknowledging the mental effects of that experience. 

No... I'm not sitting in the corner in a fetal position. But I feel different than normal. I'm not sure I have a "normal" setting... but what I'm feeling isn't right. It's almost like I'm ready for all of this to be over. It's NOT! And honestly... it's going to take a LONG time for things to get dramatically better here in Rockport. 

I'm not alone. Almost everyone I know thats even remotely in my life is feeling the same way. We want our town and our lives back to a kinder and more gentle time. Thats my heart speaking. My mind knows differently. This is our reality...

I can do only what I can do to help myself. I have been shooting more in the last few weeks... and that helps a lot. I'm beginning to feel more creative and hungry to make fine art photographs again. Just journaling about this is good for me. 

Today is the day I stop grieving and get on with my life. There are so many things that I need to be doing right now. I will not be a victim. I will be a survivor...

This is a female Red-winged Blackbird I photographed during the contest. She was feeding on some of the grasses that grow near the banks of the resaca. The wind was howling that morning and I was mesmerized by watching her try to eat. I like this image a LOT. Enjoy...

Female Red-winged Blackbird   Refugio County, TX